365 days together...

I was so nervous and so excited.. my stomach hurt.  I was going to see you, my precious daughter for the very first time.   However, this journey was different.  You were 2 years old and I was a complete stranger.  I would take you away from everything familiar and comfortable and share with you how I was going to be your FOREVER Mommy!  This was a day I had dreamed about, prayed about and thought often about over the past year and a half.  I couldn't wait to see your face, to hold you, to kiss you, to cuddle you and to hear your voice.  Yet, would you want that?  As we approached your house I began to pray with Daddy, asking the Lord Jesus to prepare your heart.  I prayed he would give us favor in your eyes and that you would feel safe and know you were loved.

I'll never forget the moment the door opened and I finally saw you for the very first time...  You didn't know who I was, but I knew you were my baby girl!  Daddy and I got to spend about an hour with you and we played legos, gave you a book filled with pictures of us, brothers, your new house and your new room.  Your favorite picture was of the backyard, you loved the slide.  I remember when I got to pick you up for the first time to help you wash your hands, I got to hold you!  It was quick, but it was amazing! Before we had to leave that night, we gave you your pink bear from brothers and your blankey.  You cried as we left.  My heart  hurt because I knew you didn't understand, but we reassured you we would be back tomorrow.  When Daddy and I closed the door my heart was sad, the good-bye was difficult and I wasn't prepared, but then I realized God had answered my prayer.  We had found favor in your eyes!

The next five days were unforgettable and emotionally exhausting.  Each day we were able to spend more and more time with you.  The good-byes never got easier and when I woke up Friday morning.. I thanked Jesus that I would no longer have to tell  you good-bye and tonight we would tuck you in to your new bed!

You have been home for 365 days!!  I can't imagine life without you!!  We have had a year of lots of firsts and new beginnings. I am so thankful God created you Savannah.  I love you so much.  Your sparkling blue eyes, adventurous personality, love for shoes, jewelry and the color pink brings joy to each day.

Mommy continues to pray daily for wisdom as I raise you.  I pray that I would encourage you and grow you in the gifts and talents that Lord has given you.  I pray that you would trust and follow Jesus each and everyday of your life.  I pray that you would know that you are not here by chance, but made by God, the creator of everything.  He formed everything about you and knows the exact number of hairs on your head.  You are the daughter of the King!

More Beautiful You
By: Jonny Diaz


Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight, her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well, little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care, your skin, your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but He's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well, little girl twenty one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And He'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late, you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear, they can all be washed away

By the one who's strong, can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry, all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light, He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
That there could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
There could never be a more beautiful you

You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do, so there could never be a more beautiful you...

I love you Savannah!!
Update:
The plan is still to sign for adoption on November 18th... please pray with us that it will take place